i’ve always been fascinated with people’s weirdness

March 14, 2009

 

 yesterday was a weird day
today is a goof day
tomorrow is another day

one day at a time. cai, one day at a time.

getaway

March 12, 2009

  a month ago, we got the chance to have a looong vacation out of town…Subic to be exact. We stayed in a nice resort at the Baloy Beach and we really had a blast! especially the kids!

 The sunset (obviously) at subic

 
passing some knowledge to my little twinkle toes

 
enjoying the water with the husband

with my boys…. the daughter was running around somewhere

love it!

perty nuffin

March 11, 2009

i wrote a letter for you years ago
asking questions i know you’d never answer
that night when you held my hand
that night when you said goodbye

i am sitting here pretending to have a life
just watching life pass by
not really knowing who i am
not really wanting to know
not really caring enough to know

sometimes you make me smile
with those clueless eyes
and hungry sighs

running away from yesterday
and yet life finds a way
to put me back where i was

where i was is where i didn’t want to be
but life will always be tough
sending clowns to make you frown
yup, life is a bitch, or so i’ve heard

dancing raindrops in a quiet afternoon
silly reindeers flying south
white ghost keeping me sane
until i hear from you again

so this is for the time you lied and cried
this is for the chances i wasted intently
this is for my hero who never get to save me
this is for you who would never get me.

forever young

March 7, 2009

  one of the coolest artist in the whole wide world passed away and probably rapping his way up to heaven and doing a high-five with whoever is up there…then remembers his loved ones and looks down on earth and wondered how are they going to live each day of their lives without him…he then becomes sad and realized that it was too early to leave them behind…it was too soon for his wife to wake up in the middle of the night crying and wondering why there is a big spot of emptiness in the house…his kids, friends and other people are probably saying to themselves “it’s ok, he is in a better place now” or “it’s ok, at least he is no longer suffering” … then they sit in one corner and for some reason their tears come rolling down their cheeks…it won’t stop. the tears won’t stop.. the pain won’t go away… thousands of stabs in their chest won’t stop and living becomes impossible because in reality …. they knew that never in their lives again would they see him smiling one last time, they would never hear him laugh one last time. they would never get to touch him or hug him one last time. they would never hear him call their names one last time. never.

 
Thank you for the song “kaleidoscope world”. it was an eye opener. 

I would really love to ask death how he or she (or whatever “it” is) sleeps at night when he see how the love ones grieve over the people he took…or if he even sleeps… i know i’ll have my chance to ask him that but when that time comes… i hope the husband and i  have secured our kids future.

makes me wonder why the hell on that particular day i just sat on the corner of my bed for a good half an hour with my mind blank and i was just looking at the trees outside the window… maybe if i got my ass running to the car after that phone call from my brother…i would have seen him alive one last time and maybe got the chance to hold his hand one last time and maybe he got to squeeze my hand one last time and maybe got to say “goodbye” and “i love you” one last time.maybe.

I so hate myself right now…. Emo mode activated.

If I see death I would beat the crap outta him and tell him “that’s for taking my dad and my grandma and clio and chase and my favorite rapper” then i’ll help him up and tell him “ok, let’s go”  and let him take me wherever all dead people went..and maybe apologize for ripping his hood off his head.

haay. buhay parang life. ganun talaga. unahan lang yan.

sprites and blessings

March 5, 2009

  last saturday, me and the husband got the chance to have lunch with one of my best buds… i was soooo thrilled to see her again and was dying to tell her stories and hear her stories but we didn’t have the chance to talk about the juicy part of our lives maybe because the husband was there or the best bud just didn’t feel like talking about it but i ‘m very glad to see her again! she looks better the last time i saw her ..blooming and all!

I was sooo looking forward having Pia Dina’s Calzone Bianco and their yummy Puttanesca and to my dismay it does not taste the way it did before or maybe my test buds changed over the past couple of years…hmmmm…must be the taste buds eh.

last sunday, I finally got the strength to put up a garage sale…sold used and not-used-at-all items and was pretty much almost sold out … i’m planning to hold a garage sale every weekend for the whole month of march until all the clutter is gone and the money earned from that will be used to buy some paint and knick-knacks for the house we’ll be moving to by april. Hopefully there would be zero clutter when we live in our new home… well then again that depends with the sprites living with us…

 

Early this morning I was on my way to my station when a shadow greeted me with her loud and eerie shriek. I got startled and thought that the gates of hell was about to open. I turned around and to my dismay it was only my imagination and the shadow was only the most obnoxious girl I ever met…heh. goofy morning to myself … I am talking to myself again…which means the storm is over and I am back to my abnormal self again.

The other day, the husband and I were talking about promotions and about his boss

After hearing a story about how much of a kiss-ass his boss is…

Me: yup, and look where he is now (trying to tell him that kissing some ass can get you several steps up a corporate ladder)
Hubby: yeah, he’s in a shit hole.
Me: Oh what a heavenly shit hole … with luxurious things (his boss is earning salary big time!)
Hubby: How can you call that heavenly? 30 years of marriage with no kids and people doesn’t really like him because of who he is. I am the one who is in a heavenly situation.. two great kids, a lovely wife (ehem!) a job that pays for everything we  need.
Me: I rest my case. Book is closed.

I can’t believe i actually wanted to tell him to kiss somebody’s ass to get promoted. shame on me. tsk..tsk..tsk.. Makes me want to hit myself over and over again for missing out the real blessings i have right in front of me.